Thursday, May 08, 2014

Taking a deep breath ~

Now that this day is over....this week is over...
I can finally let you all know
 just what has kept me awake at night
and busy during the day ~
 
Aside from our Buddy being sick ~
...then having to lose him yesterday to Cancer,
I have been occupied with a court trial here in Virginia ~
 
a trial that I was selected to be a jury member of.
a trial of the abduction & murder of a young woman...
a trial that ended today with the jury conviction of her killer.
a monster.
an evil evil individual.
 
without going into much detail
and
out of the utmost respect for this girls' family,
I needed to just let you know that now that it is over...
 
I need a little time to heal from the atrocities of the trial,
and I need a little more time to heal from the loss of a beloved friend.
 
so there you have it.
I feel like I can now let go of alot and
take a deep breath....
 
I have my computer on,
and I sometimes will be lurking on FB to see what you all have been up to,
to kind of to take my mind off recent events.
....but please don't feel slighted if I don't answer you immediately.
please don't be angry if it takes me a day or so to get back in touch with you for an order.
my email inbox is bursting at the seams with well-wishes and concerns,
and for them I am extremely grateful and thankful.
 
I'll be OK ~ in due time...
I'm just gonna enjoy our peaceful farm for a bit,
stitch alot and lose myself a little....
 
Thanks so much for understanding my friends ~
 
 
* Blessed be *
Lori

52 comments:

kaniki's said...

Sending love & Hugs to you Lori... I'm sooooooo very sorry for your loss of that great beautiful boy of yours... Buddy was awesome- and I so loved seeing him in all your farm and daily pics...

And I hope you can push past the feelings that you had to endure- as you were on that jury- witnessing first hand the horror of what people do- and what the families have to go through...

Breathe deep- hold those that are close...

Sending love.....

Niki

feltedhare said...

It would so nice if you could just retreat for a week or so. Heal yourself and your whole family, 2 legged and 4. Take heart in knowing you are loved and understood.
hugs

Stacey said...

Hugs to you my dear friend Lori~ So much healing for you at one time. Take the time that you need. I feel so badly for the loved ones that have had to relive such a horrors. Sending candle prayer above for the family and all of you that were a part of the trial...peace and light to all. I happen to know of a special Rat that loves to listen over a cup of tea. <3

lms said...

take all the time you need....big big hugs to you and your hubby....

softinthehead said...

OMG Lori you were involved that trial! Holy crap what an awful situation to be exposed to. Having been through a murder trial myself I know what it can do to ones soul. HUGE cyber hug coming your way.... Having to deal with that horrific mess and then to loose your beloved Buddy....there are no words. I wish I was closer I would be there in a heart beat to sit with you and have tea and make my rather large shoulder available. Please try to find comfort in who and what you love...this is when family is so necessary.... Blessed Be my sweet friend....

jerilanders said...

How utterly horrid to go through such an experience. I would never want to do it. Glad for you that it is over and done with, but I suppose it will never really be forgotten; sorry for that. And very sad and sorry for your Buddy. I have lost many animal friends and it is ever painful. Our great pyrs are only 1 year old, and I can't even imagine being without them.

Jennifer said...

God bless you Lori!!!!

polly columbus said...

Thank you for serving on the jury. I am sure that is was terrible. But what a wonderful gift you have given the family, justice and knowing the person that took their loved one will be punished as our courts decide.
Don't think of the horror, think of the family. Hang in there!

Debra said...

I really respect you for what you have just been through. It is enough that you have had to say goodbye to a dear animal friend, but to have endured the horrible details of such a trial cannot have been easy. I pray that this Spring will refresh and heal you.

Coon Hollow Farm said...

Wow Lori, I was going to say jury trial in your FB feed the other day. I am so sorry you had to endure that and the loss of your familiar all at the same time. Light and Love my friend, Dawn

linda said...

Prayers for healing and serenity and comfort. Take all the time you need to gather your fractured heart and soul.

Karen Farley said...

Lori - Just keep thinking about Halloween coming up soon - Our Favorite Holiday. I will keep you in my thoughts.

Cathy G. said...

Dearest Lori,
Take all the time you need to heal! Those of tender heart such as yourself need extra special care to deal with such emotional stress and loss you have faced. Sending love, healing thoughts and energies dear friend.
Comforting Hugs!!
Cathy G

Glenda said...

Thank you for your willingness to serve so there could be justice. I was a child abuse investigator for many years it is never easy to put the evil behind you . I will be praying for peace and comfort for you.

Chrie said...

Lori,
So sorry for your loss of Buddy...we have a 14 year old Lab (Lucy) who we adore, who is slowly going downhill...so hard.

In addition to this heartbreak, and the awfulness of the trial, just go into your shop, touch the fabrics, wool, and threads..sit down, look around, then stitch a little (or a lot)..has to help!

Robin Hager said...

Lori,
I am so sorry about your beloved Buddy. I know the pain of losing a "fur baby". I have been through it many times.
I am also sorry that you had to endure such a horrendous trial. It's easy to read about things like this, and even though we are concerned, we can turn the page and go on with our lives. To be involved in it so totally has to be so disturbing. At least the trial turned out as it should. Take some time to recover, and be proud of yourself for doing your sacred duty. Hugs.

matty said...

Unplug. Stitch. Rest. Walk. Pray. Restore.

See you soon!

Lady Locust said...

Bless you. I can't watch movies with such things knowing perfectly well that it is a movie. To have to hear all the details would take a tremendous amount of bravery and heart. You don't need to respond, just take a breath and know that you are in our prayers.

casey said...

Oh, dear heart.....I am so very sorry. I thought Buddy was doing ok...that's a shock to me. Big sweet boy was so very loved.

In time the memories of the trial will fade and it will be easier to bear. I know you will find joy in all that surrounds you and you'll come back to us when the time is right.

Pam in IL said...

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

annie said...

hugs!

Primitives By The Light of The Moon said...

Thinking of you and so sorry for the loss of your dear friend.

Unknown said...

Lori,
a big kiss all the way from Australia Robin Harper

Cotton Eyed Jo said...

The Universe is set right by the brave actions of so many... Lawyers, police, and not least jury members... Hoping your spirit will return to a state of balance and centered soon.

LaNelle said...

Lori, my heart hurts for your loss of Buddy they truly are a wonderful gift God gives us to share life with. Please give yourself plenty of time for renewal on that beautiful farm. Many blessings to you.....

cucki said...

Sending you lots of love dear friend xxx

Simply Quaint said...

Thinking of you and what your family had to Intel this past week....sending comforting wishes for now a relaxing and much needed peace and down time to get your thoughts and aching heart back on a mend.....
Hugs
Rhonda

Shuttle, Hook and Needle said...

This can be a very harsh world to live in at times. Take the time and let your heart and mind heal.

gracie said...

Keeping you in my thoughts....

HomeSpunPrims said...

Wishing you peace Lori for all you've had to witness. Hugs, Lori

Patti said...

May the peacefulness of your lovely farm heal your troubled heart. I can't even imagine.... Sending hugs and prayers.
Blessings, Patti

Cari said...

I am so very sorry for the loss of your sweet Buddy. He was so very, very handsome. Our furry ones surely leave a hole in our heart when they leave us don't they? Extra hugs to all of your other furry and feathered friends.

I'm also so sorry you had to sit through a horrible trial. God Blessed America though…. Take some time for healing and loving those so close to you.

NMK said...

I am so sorry to hear how difficult this week was for you....take time to un-wind, mourn, and be surrounded by your sweet family & farm.....

Sandi said...

Be well...

Sandi

Shirlee said...

Definitely a difficult week. Take time to rest & be good to yourself. You need it.

Unknown said...

Both very tough to deal with. My daughter, who is only 23 had to be on federal grand jury for 6 months. She had a hard time with some of the cases that she had to hear. Prayers....Trudy

Melissa said...

Lori, I'm sorry you've been hit on the emotional front so hard. Yes it takes time to heal from all that. I was on the jury for a rape trial and I remember not sleeping much. Take care!

Vicki Jo said...

What a trying, tragic time in your life. I hope you have a peaceful day on your farm and begin healing.

Penny said...


May your heart and spirit be renewed soon. After the loss your sweet friend, Buddy, and sitting on that jury, I am sure you need time to regroup. Our world can be a crazy place. Glad to know you have the sanctity of your beautiful farm to help you get through, and the love of your wonderful family and friends. Many blessings, Penny

quiltsbycheri said...

you have been definitely been through an emotional ringer, poor thing...... relax stitch renew yourself....many hugs

Robin at The Primitive Hutch said...

Lori ~ I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved Buddy. I'm sure the sweet memories of him will be forever in your heart.

I'm also sorry you had to go through the tragic events of a murder trial ~ I hope you can peace and know that you did it for the family so they can have closer and peace as well.
Big Hugs to You.
Blessings
Robin

The Preening Crow said...

Oh Lori. To lose a Dog takes part of your heart.
And then to have to deal with a Monster.
Center your soul again. Nature is one of the best ways to do that I know of.

P.J. said...

Your sorrow is our sorrow. Keeping you in my heart and thoughts as you morn your dear family member and release the overwhelming experience from the trial.

Mary A said...

I think losing a dog is so hard but losing a big dog is some how harder because they cast such a large shadow over your heart. Glad the trial is over and hoping the victim's family can heal some. May I suggest you immerse yourself in some pinterest? Look at beautiful images to wipe away the horror you have seen.

Nancy Bauer said...

So sorry for your loss of Buddy, my heart hurts for you and yours and for Lazy too, he must be lost :(. I was stunned when I read you were on the jury for the murder of Alexis! It was horrid enough just to read/ hear about that local awful thing happening but that wicked monster. All I can say is you all did the right thing by putting him away forever that he can harm no more! Sending healing thoughts and prayers your way, take time to heal and breath again my friend! Xoxo

C M Designs said...

Dear Lori, My heart goes out to you on the loss of your beloved pet.. I think it is one of the hardest things we have to go through and it takes time for the pain to ease.. We've lost many kitties and two dogs, which will remain in our hearts and thoughts forever..
To have to serve on jury duty for such a crime had to be a wrenching experience..
You are blessed to have a fabulous home, husband, daughter, farm and animals.. Spend time with your family and your critters. Do some stitching that will be enjoyable and get out in the fresh air and take a nice long walk..
Don't feel that you have to rush back to your routine unless that is your desire..
I'll be thinking about you.
Hugs, Charlotte in Virginia

Kathy L. said...

May you find comfort in your beautiful farm, family and your stitching.

Hugs to you

Kathy

Kathy L. said...

May you find comfort in your beautiful farm, family and your stitching.

Hugs to you

Kathy

Lori Ann Corelis said...

Sending you peace . . . .

L

Anonymous said...

every thought and prayer ~ going out to you, my friend.... there is no place like home.

may you find healing and peace....

rebecca

Anonymous said...

"Lord make an instrument of your peace. Where there is hatred, let me sow love; where there is injury, pardon; where there is doubt, faith; where there is despair, hope;where there is darkness, light; and where there is sadness, joy.

Divide Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console,;to be understood as to understand; to be loved as to love; for It is in giving that we receive; It is in pardoning that we are pardoned; and It is in dying that we are born to eternal life. The prayer of St. Francis, loved animales, may he confort You in the loss of Buddy, may he being You place and Light.

Felicia. bfhamlin@bevcomm.net

Chris said...

You have been in my thoughts Lori. I am heartbroken over the loss of Buddy.